Here I was... a girl who had hardly done anything with a boy, a girl who thought she could never feel something as strong as love for a boy, a girl just starting off her senior year, a girl who had no idea what she was getting herself into...
Sure my step dad would always mention him, but I didn't actually think anything would happen. I mean... come on, nothing ever really happened when it came to situations like that for me.
When I use the word him, I'm referring to the boy who works with my step-dad, the first boy I ever had any butterfly feelings for, the first boy to make my heart crack into a million tiny little pieces, something I never thought would be possible.
Our first contact, facebook, of course... Followed by him liking almost every profile picture that I had at the time, so of course I had to like his photos back. And then the famous facebook poking began, first from him and then from me. This went on for weeks, I didn't think we would ever reach real, actual communication...
Then came the day that my family and I went to go see my step-dad at work, he wasn't there, but he knew I was there because of the pictures I posted on facebook... The first real written words to me were on a picture of me and my mom that I had posted that night; it was "You both are beautiful!" I don't know about you, but if a boy calls me beautiful I'm definitely going to look into him!
This is where I came to the decision, I would finally message him... I have to admit this was pretty scary for me, I had so many thoughts going through my head, 'Is this right?', 'Is this too creepy?', 'WHAT AM I DOING?" Let's just say that the dialog in my head lasted a long while before I actually hit that big scary "SEND" button. It was sometime around two in the morning when I truly reached bravery... this is what I finally sent... "So what's keeping you up mister? :)" I had never been so terrified in my life... 'Will he reply?', 'Oh my gosh I'm so stupid!', 'What was I thinking??' these were a few of the many words that were going through my mind at the time.
So did he reply to me? Was it a complete failure, or was it just the beginning to something new and exciting?? Check in next week! More of the story will be revealed! Hope all of you are having a beautiful day! <3
When you get that feeling where you want to do something, but are afraid it might not turn out like you hope.... That feeling means DEFINITELY DO IT!
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